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I'm snowed in and feel a little gross from eating way too many sugar cookies and not running around enough.

I should have gone outside!  I should have made a snowman graveyard!  I should have cleaned my apartment or written letters to people I haven't talked in ages.  I should be productive.  

I am still in my pajamas.  

But at least I'm writing even if it is for a silly journal entry.  I've done a little sketching, lately, I've done some painting.  Nothing like I used to do.  No more days spent just painting and drawing and thinking.  I feel so exhausted from just living that sometimes creating is too much.  I feel so old which is silly because I'm in my early twenties.  The perfectionist and overachiever in me wants to produce things of greatness.  I want my work to be appreciated.  I want people to think that I am talented.  But I'm too old!  My talent has gone to waste(maybe I never had talent), I will achieve nothing except for clutter and frustration.  

I seriously need to relax.  Yes my drawing skills are rusty and some of my paint has dried.  And no I'm not the published or professional artist/writer I dreamt I would be.  

This is ok.

This is life.

This is my artwork anyway.  It is for me.  I need to go back to those days when I fell in love with texture and the way lines flowed.  When I enjoyed the act of looking at things.  I remember starring at things for such a long time trying to understand how I could depict them on paper.  It had a meditative and peaceful quality.  Yes, I was often frustrated.  But the frustration was productive.  I was creating.  I felt potential.  

I am going to force myself to get back into art.  If I don't I feel like I will die unhappy.  I might be a bit dramatic right now but that is good!  This is how I felt when painting!  Going through one of my old journals I found a collage that said, "Write for your life."  So true.  I need to write/draw/paint for my life.  That is how I feel right now.

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  • Interests: SHOES, unicorns, environmental awarness, corsets
  • Favourite movie: Kinky Boots, Waking Life, The Wall, Attack of the Killer Tomatos, Labrynth
  • Favourite band or musician: Billie Holiday, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Pixies, the Kills, Scissor Sisters, the Ramones, Peaches
  • Favourite artist: Klimt, Van Gogh, Olivia, Dali, Dega, Cassat, Kahlo
  • Favourite poet or writer: James Joyce, Jorge Luis Borges, Neil Gaiman, Sylvia Plath, Kurt Vonnegut, Virginia Woolf
  • Favourite photographer: Bunny Yeager, Irving Klaw
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  • Favourite cartoon character: Jessica Rabbit, Faye Valentine, Rocketeer Bettie
  • Personal Quote: Courage is absent when we choose power over truth

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:iconbewitchedrune:
~Bewitchedrune Jan 19, 2012  Student General Artist
Thank you for add my Catwoman ^^
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hey you! its been a long time! was just wondering what u were up to the other day! I saw someone on the subway that reminded me of u so much!

so hope all is well, and hope to hear from u soon!

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The hardest thing mankind will ever learn is to love...
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:iconschieben:
Happy Birthday! :cake:
Hope you have a good one! :)

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Every hour wounds; the last one kills.

Ich bin eine einsame Seele...
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:icontylerchampion:
Thanks for the fav on the lust piece.
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thanks for the fave

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She was a phantom of delight...a spirit, yet a woman too!
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~musicaltheatrechild May 3, 2009  Professional Traditional Artist
thanks for the fav! x

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:iconpeachykeen22u:
Thanks for the fave!

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:iconcandy2021:
thank you so much for the watch! I really appreciate your support!!!

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"The day came when the risk to remain closed in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom" - Anaïs Nin
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